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Why are you here?

Somehow, some way, you ended up looking at this website. Before asking what YishHeh is, or whether you should try it, it may be worth pausing over a simpler question: why did you come?

The motive is already part of the practice

We do not usually arrive at a practice from nowhere. Something draws us: curiosity, pressure, restlessness, hope, exhaustion, longing, confusion, or the wish to feel different from the way we feel now.

YishHeh does not ask you to purify that motive before beginning. It asks you to hold it lightly enough that it can be noticed.

Wanting to feel better

It is possible that you are here because you want to feel better in one form or another: calmer, clearer, more settled, more spiritual, less anxious, less scattered, less alone.

That is not a disqualification. Nor is it a promise. This practice may sometimes be quieting. It may also expose the wish to be quieted.

Elie’s starting point

My own interest in this practice was not free of wanting. I wanted peace. I wanted calm. I suspected that this might be another way to feel better, and perhaps another way not to face myself directly.

The important point is not that the practice failed to help. It is that the wish for help itself became something I could begin to notice.

Hold the question lightly

You do not need to know your real motive with certainty. You do not need to make a confession out of it. You do not need to decide whether it is noble, shallow, spiritual, selfish, or confused.

The first movement is gentler: let the question be present. What is motivating me to do this?

A few opening questions

What brought me here now?
What do I hope this will give me?
What do I hope this will remove?
Am I looking for calm, relief, clarity, spirituality, escape, or something else?
Can I let that motive be noticed without needing to defend it or correct it?

Boundary

This motivation page is contemporary YishHeh practice guidance and personal reflection. It is not a claim about what the Mishnah or Gemara instructs a person to think before prayer.